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This has been the strangest of days. I think about the space shuttle and am reminded of second grade the first time this happened. Talk radio is amazingly disturbing. I don't see the connection between this tradgedy and the current stance of the United States and Iraq. Some how the radio talk show does. I think that the space shuttle is loaded with irony including the location of the explosion debris (palestine) Texas.

It definitely reeks of some apocolyptic sooth saying notions. All of these things I avoid. I am not a conspirasist but I do occaisionally find myself deeply affected by consequences own sense of irony.

Its been one of those weeks. I need to stop developing crushes on people that work at starbuck's, I think it has more to do with them than my subconscious.

I am reading a book about Jack Kerouac and prose and spiritual reflections. I have an obession with jack, charles manson, too but for different reasons. I don't see Jack as a guru per se, however, in the personification of the whole beat movement and its unsung heros as well as its occidental leaders, there is definitely something poignant to examine and learn from, so in this sense my obession is justified.

Terrorism, exists on a myriad of levels for those who live to love terror.

Speaking of Kerouac, I submitted some prose of my own to the homelessguy.blogspot.com blogger. When he was accepting contributions. I never heard back from him. Perhaps, my Kerouacian analogies made him think that I believed he was making a statement. In a sense, I think some forms of homelessness most of them are socio/political statements. Even if indirectly.

I have a friend with a pitbull named dharma. She's contemplating marriage at a very interesting moment in her life. Marriage is beyond my imaginary emotional range.

This Talk Show host is amazing. He's spent the last three hours talking about everything but the space shuttle. But tying all of these collected events into a pro war statement. Of which, I can only reason he won't be enlisting to fight in. I think the Media is horrible irresponsible. Its about ratings, not news, not information. It's extraordinary to the point I am distrubed.

I moderate a yahoo group. I find such interesting reactions. I get a lot of coming and going its interesting to observe. I haven't decided what it means. Accept that when you refuse to define something less people know what to do with it. Successful Yahoo groups (large member numbers) have rules limitations and regulations. They are topic centric, they are heavily moderated, they are intolerant of any "deviants". I wanted a group that was the opposite of that to see what would happen. So far, lots of coming and going. Lots of people who join but never post. Some that actively post then disappear. I am often surprised but who joins and who leaves, it's something to focus on that is productive.

I hope that SNL is a new show. I am looking forward to it. My cable is back up and I promised myself I would devote some hours of this day to mindless show watching. With this in mind, I am ending this post.